If I'd never met you.

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 I spend every day wishing

those things I said

were not the truth

were not the way I felt

but the truth is

I did feel that way

And I wish I hadn't.


Now I spend every 

day wishing you would

come home

wishing you'd pick up the phone

wishing I weren't so very

alone.

My god. I didn't know

how lonesome things could get

And now that I do. 

I pray I could go back.


Every day I spend,

wishing you would come

back haunts my memory.

Knowing the next day

and the next night will be

exactly the same. Whether

or not, I find a dummie

to take your place

O' lord god, I miss you.

Yet I still don't know

If I wish I'd never met you...

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